Im Baaaaack!!

As I got off the plane in Uganda last night I couldnt quite believe I had left and come back again! It was as though I just slotted back in to the life here.. only the sun has definately upped his game! 24c at 9pm! Its currently midday and im roasting here!

Its been quite a journey to get back gain again but so many things fell into place when I arrived back in England.. work were amaaaazing and gave me shifts straight away.. they even put me on a temporary contract which gave me a stable income and has allowed me to come back on this trip. Love you guys!

Brislington Fellowship also were a huge support and gave a parachute for the kids to play with.. cant wait to use it! Plus the amount of resources they have given has been huge and sooo gratefully recieved! Thankyouuu!

Although, even though everything was falling into place I have gone through a range of emotions.. as you know I burst into tears on my return from my last trip and I still had a passionate fire in my belly to help the kids.. After a few weeks I started to settle back into my home and work routine and although I thought about the kids everyday I felt kind of helpless.. I then went through the emotion of frustration as I was working crazy amounts of hours at work and still wasnt sure whether I would earn enough money to cater for myself back in Uganda let alone help the kids.. I was getting many emails from Ugandan kids and youth-workers asking me to help and to send things and I was just getting so annoyed in one way that they have not learnt to work for themselves and that they expect so much of me just because I am from England when really I am a struggling with graduate debt!

Then I experienced complete fear of going back when I realised everything I went through - the horrific situations and stories which I encountered every day that I was in Uganda as well as the trauma of the riots made me a complete wreck for about a week.. I was having vivid nightmares every night and I was so scared of life in general and the capabilities of man.. However after a week I had enough and prayed about it and asked God to give me peace about everything if it is His Will for me to return to Uganda.. and ever since I have had peaceful nights.. obviously the apprehension is still there as I am going out on my own etc but thats just humanly natural I think.

I started to get excited on my last week in England... my money came together as I found a roll of Ugandan money in my rucksack as I was packing!.. How amazing is that! Also Dimi from the previous team was a star and is helping with some fundraising and I started to focus back upon the children and have huuuge amounts of love for them.. I have decided that this time I need to support and help them develop their own skills so that they can be sustainable for the long term.... I get back to it on Monday starting at the Centre for Autistic Children

For now I am just soaking up the sun and the buzzing atmosphere.. I woke up this morning, in the same guest house as before, to a big parade of children marching through Namuwongo to a big live band... I feel so comfortable here, its like home from home.. my heart is back beating in Ugandan rhythm and I am excited about this new mission.. I think its going to be quite a different experience this time..

Watch this space!

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